False Start: Journal Entry

I hate the fact that in this whole dating thing people play games.  They say they don’t want you to.  They say that honesty is the best but when it comes down to it I don’t think that’s what people actually want.  No, they want you to hide it.  They want you to “Not be […]

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Dont Pull My Hair: How Adults Flirt or Talk To Each Other

Just a fun little thought since it has been a while since I really wrote a Journal entry.  I am an adult woman.  If you want to talk to me, you might think its “Cute” to be mean.  Maybe this is your version of flirting.  Maybe its just how you communicate.  Either way I no […]

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“You’ve Changed”: As You Should

“You’ve Changed.” It has negative connotations, doesn’t it?  This was one of the excuses that my ex gave me for having an affair.  At first, I felt guilty about it.  Really guilty actually.  It made me feel like I had turned into someone I wasn’t and that it was my fault.  But then I realized….I […]

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The Constraining Box of Extreme Identity

There is something noticeable about extremes.  People that live in extremes (Extreme sports, extreme diets, extreme lifestyles, extreme political views, ect) seem to be the ones that always have something going for them or have some wonderful, awe-inspiring life.  It can make it hard to define your own identity when you feel so normal.   Of course […]

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Why Mandala?

I have been trying to meditate for years and I wish that I could say that I had mastered it.  But alas I have a very hard time stopping my mind from wandering to things that I shouldn’t be. Thats why I actually find myself having an easier time finding that inner quiet when I’m […]

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Thoughts on Life

One of the hardest things about being an adult and moving back in with your parents is that they will always treat you like a child.  Because you are their child.  And while you might not be 17 anymore, typically when an adult moves back in with their parents its because their life has been […]

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A Small Reminder About Love

Sometimes we forget when we get lost in our own problems and our own struggles and pain that there is someone standing right next to us that needs just as much love and support.  It’s just who we are as human beings to forget that we are all having a shared experience of learning and […]

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You Are Strong: A Note To Myself From the Hardest Day

Dear Future Me, You are strong. Don’t let anyone tell you otherwise. These past few months have totally changed your life from top to bottom. You didn’t think that you would make it through. You KNEW you would but that first week when everything was fresh and your chest and heart ached with physical pain, […]

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Get Rid of That Shit

I have been debating or the past month on what to do with a few things form my marriage.  I know it seems silly but it’s been hard to let go and some part of me keeps thinking that something will happen and I will be able to…I don’t know fix things?  But even if my […]

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Two Things That I Can’t Stop Thinking About and Should

Its been a month and I still can’t get it out of my head.  I know that it will take a while to get over it.  We were together for Nine years and married for almost six of them. I shouldn’t be upset that he hasn’t tried to make any sort of contact for a […]

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